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Happy Birthday to my brother Tim. Twenty nine today. Hope you have a great day.

RANT WARNING

In a recent post I said I was confused why some of my shots made it to explore on flickr.

Let me first state that I know how explore works … I wish it didn’t work that way but I know how quickly people comment and “favourite” your work has a bearing on what makes it.

I was merely stating that some of my images that are in explore, supposedly the top 500 photos of the day, should not be there as I don’t feel they are good enough.

That’s all I was saying. I wasn’t saying I’m better than all of you or that you all suck because we all know that in both cases that is not true. I was merely using my assigned space on the tubes to vent about how I feel my recent popularity on flickr is not always reflected in my work.

Let me also say that yes, I am trying to get into this photography thing full time. Please do NOT think for a minute that I think I am better than any of my friends or family at wielding a camera. If we line up all our photos together we all have very different styles. I am just fortunate that some people like my style enough to pay me to turn up and point a camera at them. And after paying me to do that some of them even like me enough to pay for the photos.

Take it from me, there is nothing more humbling then being able to charge a shooters fee that covers your time on the shoot but does not include any photographs or images. That’s the best compliment a client can give you.

Rant over. Go back to what you were doing.

Today it seems is a special day.

If my ex-wife and I were still together we would have been probably ignoring each other on what would have been our eigth wedding anniversary today.

And today is Lucy and my eight week anniversary.

Gosh that’s rather freaky really.

99/365 – My little man

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When I have Matthew (normally one day per week) he drives me insane with his constant badgering and requests to do things. It’s a horrible thing to say but sometimes I count the hours until I can drop him off back at his mothers. A couple of weekends ago he was in fine form and I couldn’t wait to pack him off. He was rude, disobedient and a downright pain in the arse.

But what he doesn’t know is that when he is with his mother, there is a huge part of me missing.

I wish I was a better father those times he is around but I know that if I get too close the days he isn’t around hurt twice as much … like today.

I rang Lucy at work hoping to get her voice mail as I knew she had a lot of meetings today. I just needed to hear her voice. Silly girl answered her phone. Even sillier girl still wants to be with me even though I can be an emotional roller coaster at times.

Comments from members of the flickr community (as well as talking to Lucy) have helped buck me up a lot this morning. Thanks guys!

Matthew – “Dad … wake up! It’s raining!”

Me – Not yet awake “Huh?”

Matthew – “Dad … wake up! It’s raining!”

Me – Still not yet awake “Huh?”

Matthew – “What part of raining don’t you understand???”

Once again … he is 5.